Healings . . .

First I request you to read 

   (1)  this    and   (2) this

Slightly Unrelated, but do have a look at  (3)   this

(did not fine a place to rant @ a few accquiantces of mine,  who tried his luck somewhere....     

To HIM/THEM :    If you are so DESPERATE,  get a clue where you should be trying your luck )

There are quite a few links if you go through (1) . . . one link to another to another

One pattern repeating ever and over and over...

A sense of Negativity (shame, guilt, horror, fear,  . . . . the list goes on)

There are several areas I know something can be done.

The most important fact i noticed :-

Years and Years after a Incident, I see suffering . . .

My dear Bloggers, (non Bloggers too)

Why do you have to Suffer for no fault of yours . . .

Memories stay,

Why dont you just leave behind the Stigma, Pain, Sufferings . . . .

Easier Said than Done . . . .

Btw i'll share my small tiny story . . . .

I was Blackmailed, hmmm!!! at least for 2 years

some random guy from school . . . . asked me if I Loved my parents, teachers . . . .

Of course YES!! I do

So, next couple of years went by like this :-

i'll go tell the Principal that you Love ......  ,  she will throw you out of school 

i'll go tell your mom that you Love . . . . . , She will throw you out of your house . . .

Silly i know, But i was really freaked out

btw this started during my 4th - 5th Standard....

This guy was not my senior,  But same as standard/grade as mine, who lived near my Home . . .

So not just torture in the School Van, but during vacations, holidays also . . .

And Today in my mid 20's (eeek!!! i'm getting older)

I am learning What Relationships are . . .  And the most Basic ones

Friendships, Trust ... etc

And i'm Damn Bloody Confused . . .  (actually much much better compared to last week, he he he)

A BIG HUG , and a thanks from the bottom of my heart to a very Patient, Nice, Forgiving, Trusting, Loving friend of mine . . . . 

A Sorry to a Friend, to whom I had become a Pain in the A** with my nonsense . . .

BACK TO THE POST . . . .

So i set about thinking of Probable "solutions" "way out's" to end all the sufferings involved . . .

I set about thinking of solutions like "Forgiveness",  "Making them pay" etc etc  . . . .

I am currently trying out :-

"Acceptance"       "Self Acceptance"

A Little Clue for my School Mates :-

This person used to stick his finger in his Butt and present it other Noses  . . .

I "TOOK CARE" of a Voyeur /Peeping Tom

I just ignored a incident with a 80 -85 year old gay man, I meet on the street  . . .

And in a way , this Blackmailer, did leave me Stronger in a way . . .

So What was I saying . . .

"Acceptance"    "Self Acceptance"

Whatever Happened to you, Happened. . . 

You are still the same Person , accept yourself. . . .

There is a Part of me that I find Disgusting . . . .

A relative/person I cannot AVOID . . . Is disgusting

Has done things like throwing condoms into the bathroom where someone is having a bath . . .

Finally married her, but did so by Printing and distributing Wedding Cards, without permission . . .

Caught him flashing to the House maid. . . 

*** : Don't expect me to believe you saying " I'm Impotent " 

His wife has found a Diary where he has a journal of his "Deeds" . . .

Most of the above secrets . . . Is in no way comforting . . .

I am a Mess Who (now) has a little clue as to what Life is, what relationships are, what love is, what are the forms of love . . . 

The "Ethics" Part . . . .

The relative of mine.... will stay in close proximity till his death . . .

How can I ever Conciously get anyone into the Mess surrounding my life . . . .

Do you find ..... That I have to  " Accept Myself, The way I am "

TO have any Possibilty for Myself in this Life . . .